life

It being a while i missing from here,
here~~~
is the only place i can really talk to myself
and
let all my feeling out

today suppose to be a special day
but
i have being spending it alone~~

i know life like that
i always put you alone when i m working

i
am
sorry

but i have to earn more money
so that your parent will accept me

i know i am not good enough
i cannot compare to who ever that can make you smile and laugh all the time
all i want is you to be happy
it being few day you and me didnt talk on the phone

maybe

you dunno that i always waiting for your call

i know

you busy

so i will not mind about it

but today is the 1st time i feel so lonely in my life

p.s note to myself
you need to be more brave